Thursday, March 8, 2007: showers of blessings, literally
so. second week of uni. i think i'm kinda getting the hang of it. math is really difficult though, wonder why i'm even doing it in the first place, its like throwing me into the deep end of the pool and leaving me to drown. and yes, i'm literally drowning in my pile of math homework that i have no idea how to do. micro s probably the only subject which i understand what the lecturer is going on about, and plus, i got a really cool lecturer who makes jokes all the time. incentive to pay attention to catch the joke = pay attention in lectures = get the joke and dont look like some loser sitting there looking blur. haha. just jokes. but nah, its cool. i like micro (: FA still sorta sucks cos i dont really understand, but i guess slowly i will (: econ history.. yes! i've made an awesome new friend called louise, and we are history buddies. i wish i was in her tute. (: that would make history alot more fun and enjoyable. haha. but that's okay. i think i like uni.
things have really gotten very different without jeannie though. how we used to talk about everything under the sun, from boys and dreaded homework to our christian walk and where God was leading us. and i guess i really miss that closeness. not that debs is any different. she is a really good friend now and i get along really well with her, but the friendship is sort of different, more like an older sister younger sister, not peer-to-peer. which has its both good and bad i guess. but oh well (: i thank God for having her even in the first place.
i'm really happy bible study is starting though, its going to be a major refocussing point. and i'm really glad that my brother's decided to join ocf. and although i know its going to be quite tough struggling with taking care of my brother on top of school, work and ocf commitments, but i think its good that he starts having some form of christian support somewhere. plus i think one good point is that his coming out every weekend might be the start of his becoming more responsible! i told him that from next term onwards he has to do all the arrangements for his transport to and from my house on weekends himself. lol, hopefully i wont have to intervent in anyway :P
i've just been thinking about how much my life has changed since a couple of years ago. alot of major impacts in just short amounts of time. sec 2 sec 3, still small and thinking i know what i want in life and what i want to do. sec 4 being a semi-crucial turning point with o's and alot of other things that happened that changed alot of things in my life. year 12 being the major pivot in everything, change of environment, moving out of my comfort zone, different everything. couldnt decide on what to do in uni, and i changed my preferences 4 times before deciding on econs/comm, and even now i still think its quite a scary combination. but oh well, what can i say? i'm weird. this year? what can i say. i'm in uni already, ahead of everyone else, feeling young, feeling old, being 18. but i think one thing that i've learnt the most since being here was to just trust where God is leading me. no matter how hard and tough the road seems, i've been assured that with Him by my side i dont have to fear anything that comes my way. (which contradicts my earlier paragraph about the math, and although i have every intention of murdering my lecturer i think i will survive this semster with hopefully a distinction in math 1010. i think i would be happy even with a credit, but i digress)
so yes. (:
thats my life thus far.
quite interesting hey?
:D
a shout of praise.
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